Friday, September 7, 2012

Nothing is worse then being treated like a fat person. Nothing.




Wait… so you’re a girl who hates to shop?? No…

I love when people find this out about me, and still act surprised, like there is no such thing as a girl who doesn’t love the mall. Being overweight a majority of your life and spending the rest “thinking” you’re obese because you can’t shop at Abercrombie (seriously... we live in a world where a double zero exists), really does some long-term damage to your self-esteem. 

Nothing is worse then being treated like a fat person. Nothing.

After being a retail manager for over 6 years I can say with confidence that the majority of people in a shopping mall are tiny. To a fat girl it is a lot like being put into a judgmental shark tank and you’re the lunch being served.  The mall is always filled with size 3 nothings, hands filled to the brim, with bags of loot because they had so many options and everything was on sale for them.  These sharks hate that you make them wait to try things on, they hate how you look in skinny jeans and most importantly they hate that something made for them fits on you.

Not only is it hard shopping, to fit your curves that have curves on them, it’s also an emotional war with yourself.  Between the battles in your own head over how you look, how people are looking at you and how you think they’re thinking about you, it’s amazing I have any clothes at all. 

I think that's why we big girls have developed a layer of hilarity to camouflage ourselves.  

2 comments:

  1. I'm a girl that hates to shop too, but for different reasons. I'm just cheap and I don't like crowds. I do however like to browse the net for ideas and I will thrift my lil hear out. I'm finding it really hard to believe that you are a "big girl", but it's more about how you see yourself than anything.

    I know I'm thick..and I've had sooo many moments in my life that I believed I was "fat" because that is what I was told by the people around me. When I look at photos from those times in my life I realize that I was not "fat" at all. I was just curvier than the rest of the folks around so I got pegged as the "fat" girl. Once I was able to look at myself differently and stop thinking about what other said in regards to my body...I was able to really make some steps towards creating a body that works for me.

    I love being thick and curvy! I just don't want to jiggle...lol.

    I know you want to be "fit" again, but what does that look like in your mind...for your body? I created a dream board to help me...it could help you too :-)

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    1. The dream board is a great idea. Thanks girl!!!

      My idea of fit is similar to yours.. less jiggle and rolls. :)

      I want to be fit enough to run a marathon and that means being strong enough to do so. I'm not looking for thin. I've never been thin. I'm aiming for muscles, muscles and Muscles!!

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